Factors That Help Women Leave Abusive Relationships in Southampton
Being mistreated by the person you love—especially when physical abuse is involved—is one of the most frightening and traumatic experiences a woman can face, and it is hard to know what to do when it happens. A woman who is a victim of violence faces a particularly complicated dilemma. Should she stay or go? Although this may seem to be an easy choice, as I discussed in my last post, there are many issues that can make it difficult for a victim of domestic violence to leave. For instance, victimized women often love and feel committed to their partner, or they want to help him. They frequently have financial stressors and may fear that if they try to leave, the abuser will hurt them or their children.
Still, most female victims of controlling male violence eventually do leave.1 It often takes several attempts, but many women find help and a way out of their abusive situation. In my research on this topic, I worked with colleagues to examine hundreds of Twitter posts by victims of violence. These women used the hash tag #Why I left to share reasons they left abusive relationships. We analyzed and coded these women’s voices, and found four key factors they described as helpful in their journey to break free.2
Factor One: Facing Reality and Choosing Growth
Being hurt by someone you love is bewildering and painful, and a common reaction to it is uncertainty (i.e., “Did he really just hit me?” or “Did I do something to cause him to act this way?” or “Maybe he really is sorry and won’t hurt me again”). But when abused women in our study comprehended the reality of the abuse, it was often a catalyst for leaving.
As one woman described it, “I learned ‘abuse’ was the word for what I was going through. Once I knew, I knew better.” Another stopped wishing things would change, and said, “I finally realized he will not change and never will.” One eventually saw through the abuser’s lies: “I believed all the apologies and pledges of love but #whyIleft I realized that those words were lifeless falling from cold dead lips.”
One confusing element of abuse occurs when abusers pressure victims to accept blame for what happened.3 When these women realized the abuse was not their fault, it helped them regain self-worth. One woman tweeted, “I finally realized it wasn’t my fault and that I didn’t have to put up with it. My mental state deserved better, I deserved better.”
Seeing themselves accurately as a woman of worth also led to changes. “Because I woke up. Because I saw myself in the pain of my family’s eyes. I deserved to love myself again,” another woman wrote. Others had similar insights: “I had to love myself and realize that it wasn’t up to me to change him,” and “I learned to love me and left him.”
Factor Two: Accepting Support
Many victims become isolated from family and friends through the manipulations of the perpetrator. When these women were able to reconnect with other people in their life who loved them, they often found help and the strength to leave. Still, accepting support can be difficult. As one woman tweeted, “I finally told my family. I admitted to myself that I needed help and strength/support.” Another said it was “because of my dad,” and another “found friends that made me strong.”
Some women found healthier intimate relationships. As one woman wrote: “I met someone who showed me that love wasn’t supposed to hurt, that love wasn’t supposed to be scary or hard to talk about.”
Others cited spiritual and religious supports: “Because someone repeatedly told me I deserved better. Thank you scripture,” and, “Felt nudge from God when [the abuser] had a gun to my head… ‘Do not be afraid.’ Left next day.” Another “realized God had a safer plan for me and led me to my [current] husband, a man of integrity.”
Others benefited from professional help, tweeting: “My therapist told me that’s not love,” and another woman encouraged fellow victims to seek outside assistance: “Courage is not easy, but you can,” she wrote. “It is possible. Seek professional help.”
Factor Three: Protecting Children
Many of these women are mothers, and protecting their children was a high priority, which for some meant leaving. “I left because I had two daughters,” one woman wrote. “I didn’t want to be the excuse they used to put up with abuse later.” Another woman tweeted, “If I stayed any longer, my boys would not have only seen ‘how men are supposed to be’ but ‘how women are supposed to respond’.” And another explained: “He abused me in front of our children, I finally had enough. I didn’t want my children repeating the cycle.” One mother cited a specific incident that was a turning point: “When my 5 yo little girl asked why Daddy treats me like that with tears in her eyes, I knew I had to leave.”
A related reason women left was because of possible child abuse. One tweeted: “He turned that despising stare upon my children [and I] knew they were next.” Another wrote: “I knew he would hit our son and I risked losing custody for failure to protect.”
Factor Four: Fear and Exhaustion
Many women came to a breaking point when the fear and the pain simply became overwhelming. “I was tired of being afraid of the person I slept next to every night,” one wrote, while another needed a prompt from a friend: “Someone reminded me that living in fear isn’t supposed to be normal.” Another woman was worn down completely: “I was filled with so much anxiety. I had stomach issues, panic attacks, and TMJ. On the verge of insanity.”
Some tweets reflected a fear of being killed, such as: “I knew I would never be happy with him. I feared that he might kill me one day,” and, “I knew he would kill me.” Others felt that things were getting to a dangerous level: “I didn’t want the next time that he hurt me to be the very last…ever,” one tweeted, and another wrote, “I actually felt the possibility of death breathing down my neck.”
In some relationships where intimate partner violence has occurred, couples are able to stop the violence and find better ways of interacting. Importantly, this requires the perpetrator to take responsibility for his behavior and learn how to become nonviolent.4 However, abuse is always damaging to the spirit and body of the victim, and in many cases, the violence persists and often escalates. For many women, the safest choice is to just leave. As the brave women in our study shared, by finding courage and seeking out support from loved ones, victims of intimate partner violence can break free of abuse and build a life of dignity and safety.
The Spell of an Emotionally Abusive Relationship
Emotional abuse is subtle and dangerous because it can make you wonder if you’re crazy, or if you’re making a big deal out of nothing. Unlike physical and verbal abuse which can be identified by words and actions, emotional abuse often hides behind platitudes and euphemisms. It is an experience of feeling inappropriately indebted to, controlled by, or manipulated by another person.
Emotional abuse makes you feel crazy. It’s like a spell that engulfs you and leaves you disoriented. You find yourself questioning your thoughts, feelings, and experiences. You feel unnecessary anxiety and responsibility for your partner’s world.
Even though it’s common for emotional abuse to come alongside verbal and physical abuse, it sometimes comes alone. When this happens, emotional abuse feels like a toxic undercurrent and it is difficult to identify. But know this: if you’re concerned you’re a victim of emotional abuse, you’re not crazy.
Sometimes the easiest way to make sense of your own experience is hearing what it’s like for other people. Often we need someone else to give us the words for what we are struggling to spell out.
I feel like I owe it to them.
I feel like I need to give them access to all my thoughts and feelings. I feel like I need to answer the phone whenever they call and to text them back immediately. I don’t feel that I have the right to say no or to choose what and when I respond.
I feel anxious when they aren’t around or when I’ve missed a call from them.
There is a low level hum of anxiety when I know they’ve called and I have not responded immediately. Or when I’ve been away from them for a period of time. I know they will be upset. They will usually not tell me directly that they are upset, but they will communicate it passively or in tones and body language.
I don’t feel good enough.
Our arguments usually end with me apologizing for what’s gone wrong. It feels like the only way to maintain the peace is for me to take responsibility for the bad stuff even if I had nothing to do with it.
I can’t win.
No matter how hard I try to improve in my behavior or words, my partner is still disappointed. They don’t believe that I’m trying and they don’t see it.
I question and doubt my reality and perspective.
I feel confused when we fight. My partner tells me that my reality is wrong or that I don’t remember things well. I’m not sure what’s true anymore.
I feel anxious bringing up certain topics.
There are certain topics that I stay away from now. My partner does not agree with me and they can’t stand it when we don’t agree. It’s just not worth it.
I avoid telling them about my social plans.
My partner tells me that I spend too much time with my friends and family. They often accuse me of caring more about other people than about them. I put off telling them my social plans because I know it will cause tension.
I end up feeling like a bad partner.
When I try to bring up a topic with my partner, they often globalize what I’m saying and ask me why I stay with them if they are so terrible. Somehow the conversation becomes about how terrible a partner they are and how bad I make them feel.
I’ve stopped asking them to meet my needs.
I try not to ask my partner to meet my needs because they only hear me telling them that they are a bad partner. Then I feel bad.I feel like I’m walking on eggshells.
I feel responsible for keeping my partner happy. I try to say and do things to keep them in a good mood because their bad moods ruin the day for both of us.
I feel uncomfortable with their declarations of love.
When my partner is in a good mood they lavish me with praises. It feels good to be adored by them and I don’t know why I question it, but part of me feels icky at the same time. Sometimes their saccharine phrases are too much for me.
So, what can I do?
If you identify with any of the above experiences, it’s worth giving attention to whether or not your relationship is emotionally abusive. What is happening that makes you feel this way? What are the dynamics at play in your relationship?
See how much your partner is willing and capable of engaging in conversation around your experience. Introduce how you are feeling to your partner using a gentle startup and focusing on your thoughts, feelings, and experience. If your partner is willing and/or capable of engaging in this kind of conversation and taking responsibility for their behavior, there’s hope that you can change your relationship.
Ask yourself the hard questions, like: What will need to change for me to stay in the marriage? How long am I willing to wait?
If you think that you’re a victim of emotional abuse, know that help is available to you.